My husband is very organized. It shows in everything he does, including the way he has worked hard on looking back to 2016, and planning 2017 a few weeks ago. While doing that, he looked at journal entries from previous years, seeing what the Lord has done in his life over almost two decades of walk with Christ.
What he found amused him and he had me read a portion of it. It was a prayer he wrote to God in 2006. At that time, he had been a Christian and single for seven years. He was telling God how tired he was to be single. It made no sense to him. He chose the narrow path of purity and service, but he had enough. He was ready for God to send him his wife.
Isn’t it beautiful when two hearts meet and connect at the deepest level, without barriers, and without shame, offering their very best to each other? Love. Wouldn’t it be life-changing if every single one of our relationships could be that fulfilling? If we could just be open, raw, and real with others?
Three years ago, I had the opportunity to move abroad with my husband who works for a Christian NGO. When we arrived in West Africa, I wasn’t sure what to expect. I knew this would be a learning experience, but I could not predict God would work in my life the way He did.
We can all agree that life has its ups and downs. There are times when it’s hard just to take another breath, and other times when our biggest concern is not being stuck in traffic, trying to get to work on time. What about those days when you seem to be battling an invisible force that wants to get the best out of you? What if you actually were?
Often times, we can’t fight because we fail to recognize who our enemy is. We take a blow here and there, turn around a bit dizzy and point the finger at the wrong enemy: our children, our friends, our spouse, our co-workers…
There is something strange that we are all constrained too. It’s called time. God created it, He masters it, He is not stuck in it or rushed by it. We are. At times, like when we are in the waiting room waiting for news about a loved one who has gone into surgery, time seems so painfully long. There’s also when we find ourselves with a tight deadline or when we spend good quality moments with our families and friends. It seems like there could never be enough hours in a day.
Waiting on God can be hard. Especially when expecting the fulfillment of a promise, or an answer to a prayer.
The other night, my husband and I prayed together. Before praying, we like to read Scriptures to set our focus on the Truth of the Word of God. We use a deck of cards with verses on them to do so. That evening, without much thinking, I picked the first card on the pack and read it aloud: The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. (Psalm 34:17, NIV)
Then we began to pray. While we prayed, I felt so out of place. I mean, who can boast of being a righteous person? Not me. I did not feel like I measured up. Deep in my heart I secretly thought the verse simply applied to those who had it more together. Have you ever felt this way?